Just For the Child

Just For the Child

The rest of my mom’s life is shorter than the life she has been living. She goes in and out of the hospital as if it is her home.

Since she repeats being hospitalized and getting discharged because of constant fainting and tripling,I always had to hear the news from my elder sisters.

Being the sixth of the seven children, I lived in Chicago and all the rest of my family lived in Indiana.

I thought she was fainting because of vertigo, but after knowing that it happened because of her blurry sight, I returned to Chicago.

After having a checkup in a hospital, she had the result that she has lost almost all of her sight of one of her eyes.

She was also diagnosed that her other eye was on the primary stage of macular degeneration.

The doctor said that if she leaves her other eye without operation, she will lose all of her sight.

Being the youngest, after setting the date of operation, I decided to be with her.

Living a life only for her children,she endured the pain all alone without saying that she was ill, worrying that the children might worry about her.

I was thankful having the time with my mom.

Meanwhile, she was delivered to Zion, into Heavenly Mother’s arms.

She got rid of the idols that she had been worshiping for a long time; out of her heart.

Taking her to the hospital,nursing, and preparing warm meals for her,

I was so thankful for having the opportunity to serve my mo

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My heavy heart became light as a feather.

Reminiscing about my mom’s life, which was only for her children, I realized a bit of Heavenly Mother’s great love and sacrifice.

Though She is hurt, She wouldn't say, though She is tired, She wouldn't say.

I give eternal thanks for Heavenly Mother’s love, the love of looking only after Her children.

Now, I want to be a good daughter for my Heavenly Mother.

Elohim God,has given us the true life and blessings of eternal life for these souls living a life in vain.

With God’s love coming from my heart,

I realize that the only opportunity to repay for their grace is to preach the gospel.

I truly thank Heavenly Mother who is still delivering the message of love for these children who are sinners.

Mom is always sorry

Mom is always sorry

There is a word that my mom constantly tells to me and my sister.

That is the word, ‘sorry.’

She says sorry even if she hasn't done anything wrong.

“Mom,I asked you to wash this clothes for me!”

“I’m sorry, I forgot. I will wash it for you tomorrow. Sorry.”

“Mom,you told me that you’re going to make this for me.”

“I’m sorry. I will surely make that for you tomorrow.”

“Mom,why didn't you come to pick me up!”

“I’m sorry. I’m coming.”

We are the ones to be sorry since we always ask her for things, but my mom always says she is sorry to us.

During puberty, after quarreling with my dad, I packed my suitcase and ran away from home.

At that time, my mom came running without her shoes on and said with tears,

“I’m sorry. It’s all my fault. It’s all my fault, so let’s go home.”

Even when she is sick, she prepares breakfast for us in the early morning.

When she couldn't possibly prepare breakfast by chance, she again apologizes.

When I vent my anger to her because I couldn't find something that carelessly put somewhere in the house, she apologizes for not taking care of it.

My younger sister has troubles getting up in the mornings, so she has a tantrum whenever my mom wakes her up.

Whenever that happens, my mom would apologize.

When my sister gets angry when mom wakes my sister late by chance, my mom would apologize again.

When my mom goes to buy things in the market, she will be relentlessly bargaining.

When she goes to a restaurant she will be meticulous about the dishes.

That would make me embarrass. However, she becomes very weak only in front of her children.

Looking at my mom, it reminds me of Heavenly Mother.

Whenever I watch the Biblical play, ‘Heavenly Mother's Great Sacrifice 1-Heaven,’ there is a part which makes my heart ache so much.

That is when Heavenly Mother drops down and weeps mournfully, after Her children is expelled from Heaven.

Compared to Heavenly Mother’s sorrow, the Heaven is cruelly, expressed so beautifully.

Just for the fact that Her children is expelled, She doesn't see the glorious beautiful Heaven,but laments.

Though I gave true thanks to Heavenly Mother who loved this sinner so much, I hated myself so much for hurting Her.

Writing this, I give thanks for the fact that I am the child receiving God’s love.

God will give up everything to give love for the children.

Now, I will try my best to put that love into action for my Heavenly brothers and sisters.

I truly give thanks to Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother for their infinite love, allowing me to live as their child.

There is something mystical about mother’s smile

There is something mystical about mother’s smile

Mother isn’t just a member of a family. She is like the sun. Mother’s existence is like the sun;all things in the universe lose their light without it. That is because of Mother’s love. The reason why there is something mystical about mother’s smile is because of the sacrifice that is in her love.

A young man living with his widowed mother happened to lose the sight of both eyes in a car accident. Despite of his mother’s sincere comfort and care, the man felt a great sense of lost. Then one day, he heard that someone donated an eye for him. But he wasn't that pleased because he was looking forward to receive both eyes and live like before.

“Darling, why don’t you get the operation even if there’s only one eye?”

He decided to have the operation since he couldn’t overcome with his mother’s plea.

On the day when he took his bandages off, he bursts into tears. His mother didn't have one eye. But the mother said to him,

“Darling,I wanted to give you both of them, but thinking of you taking care of me who can’t see, I just couldn't.”

This is maternal love. She never grudges though she gives out everything. It is certain when we see the relationship between a bow and an arrow.

The arrow flies further away as the bow bends more. So the mother is like the bow and the child is like the arrow. As much as the parents’ back becomes crooked, the child moves forward. When there is an arrow that flew away furthest, the bow must have been bended a lot to send it.

The bow would be painful as much as it bends. But the bow endures its pain, just to send the arrow further away.

In our surroundings, we can easily find parents and children having relationships like the bow and the arrow. As much as the child is great, the parents’ sacrifice would be much more than that.

If there is a person who achieved, behind those achievements, most of them have their mothers who sacrificed for them.

Source from : From the book of essays, ‘A word that became the strength of my life.’ /JHS